dont worry, hannah, people tell me this all the time. either that or that im an obsessed teenager. hmm *thinks* if i can carry on with this for another three years then i wont be an obsessed Teenager... just an obsessed/lovestruck 20 year old, hehe!
no i know what you mean. i have never felt this strongly about a person before. its different to my so-called crushes, none of which have ever lasted this long. i have never been properly in love, but this is what i imagine it feeling like!
its a longing that nothing and nobody else can satisfy. it sometimes feels like a physical kind of heart ache, a very strange sensation. and when i see him i am filled with a kind of rush: excitement, butterflies-in-the-stomach, desire, longing and attraction. its a feeling that has never been matched by anything else! i feel as though i could trust him completely and tell him anything and everything, even though i have never met him. i love his cheeky grin and beautiful eyes! he keeps me going!
I am 31 and married with children and the feelings I have for this guy has lasted years and sometimes I cry about it. Just ask Helgz how emotional I get when I think about it. I don't think it will ever go away but I am sure there will be times when the obsession isn't so intense. At least I hope so, because it is exhausting me. I never went through this as a teenager and I don't think it is only indicative of teenagers anyhow. It is that beautiful, talented man doing this to us and we are beautiful and talented for recognising this.
you word things better than me tess! lol! thats what i was aiming at.
in the goth NME originals book - i advise you perchase it if you already havnt, it has a made up rob smith on the front - robert smith is interviewed several times. he is asked about the ages of people in the sudience. i think this somes up the thing i was trying to get through bout age not being a barrier for feelings and how teenagers can feel true love not just lust!:
we talk about mouths, and then i suggest that Robert might feel his audience is too young to appreciate the complex mesh of love and hate in the songs... "i never feel patronising towards anyone of 15; i remeber still how i experienced things then. i could never write them down as well as i could at 25, i didnt have the same grasp of language, but i felt the same emotions, just as strong, in a much rougher form."
*adopts cheesy advertising voice* for the full interview and much more, you can purchase your own copy of the Goth NME originals! *cheesy smile*
incidently, that article was written in 1987 - the year i was born! lol! hehe! xx
you see! hot! thing is guys, ive grown soooooo accoustomed to seeing him in feminin clothing and dresses and skirts that it will never shock me anymore. so to me thats a really normal photo. i dont really notice the skirt anymore... tho maybe i do notice his brilliant legs! *winks*
ah, what a refreshing site! who wants a "mans man" as bri puts it! apart from steve i dont go for the manly sort. tho does ville valo count as a mans man...? no i dont think.
oh God!!!! how much do i love this man!!!!!! right now this "obsession" has come back a lot stronger...(well, actually it has never gone away, but,well, you know what i mean, right??) and it isn't helping, i'm at exams right now, this week and the next one, and i just had my accountancy, math, chemistry, physic exams and i just couldn't concentrate....i needed to solve some problems, and all i could think of was in Brian...., good thoughts, but not so good when i get my grades
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quote: Originally posted by: ModernMonkey "I am 31 and married with children and the feelings I have for this guy has lasted years and sometimes I cry about it. Just ask Helgz how emotional I get when I think about it. I don't think it will ever go away but I am sure there will be times when the obsession isn't so intense. At least I hope so, because it is exhausting me. I never went through this as a teenager and I don't think it is only indicative of teenagers anyhow. It is that beautiful, talented man doing this to us and we are beautiful and talented for recognising this."
Ah Tess we have at least Twenty Years to go with this obsession.....think we will all still be here and feeling as strong? ......too right!!!