your stories of placebo.

Will · Member

RE: your stories of placebo.

jenna · Member

Well, after reading all of your stories I really dont think I have any reason to feel sorry for myself. Its amazing how much people can be put through and survive. I have a lot of respect for all of you.

Tess you are not useless, but I understand, truely, the way that you feel when you say that. I love my mum but sometimes it seems like she hates me, and that makes me feel inadequate and useless. She'll have a crap day and take it out on me and it really gets me down, I cry for hours, alone in my room. But I need to learn, as many people here have communicated, that its not healthy to live like that, wallowing in self pity. Youve done really well and I send you and Helgz all the hope of the world that you can continue to be as strong as you are and survive. It's people like you who I genuinely look up to and admire for your courage. Yes Placebo have helped you, but it takes something deep inside of you to get through the kinds of traumas that you described in your stories. My respect goes out to you.

Will, I know what its like to be bullied, not to the same extend as you have experienced, but up until last September I have always been a pretty easy target for bullies. Then after I finished my GCSEs things were different. I joined a more open friendship group, which was more about being an individual. I met my bessie mate Lucy and loads of other fantastic people. Now Im happy. Just remember Will, you are a great person, a true individual (you dont get any sheep following Placebo) and you are obviously a strong person. Good Luck

Well, I better get on with my Placebo journey, Ive already waffled for half the page Im sure. Wel it all started in... let me think... I first heard Placebo whilst watching the film 'Cruel Intentions'. I must admit I was an indie chick at the time, so Placebo werent really on my list as the best. Infact I quite preferred The Verves song 'Bitter Sweet Symphony', and it stayed that way up until early 2003. I was in the car with my uncle and he put on a CD (Hes a music nut). I was listening and I suddenly thought "Hang on a minute, Ive heard that voice before" and I asked if this was the band that sung at the start of cruel intentions. My uncle wasnt sure, but he told me what he new about the band. He said he thought I would like it. At this point I was just listening to the sound not focussing on the words and thought it was pretty good. I looked back at the credits for 'Cruel Intentions' and sure enough it was them. I rushed out the next weekend and looked in our local music store and bought myself WYIAN. I fell in love with it immediately. I marvelled at the melodies and found myself in the lyrics. It made perfect sense. I completely loved 'Allergic', it really touched me. It seems abstract when you hear it casually, but to me it made the world of sense.

As it has been said by all, Placebo are my life, my one and only. im infatuated with brian, i love him, and true love lasts a lifetime. Sinse then I live, eat, sleep, dream, speak and breathe Placebo (as my mum will tell you), i drive everyone crazy talking bout them - but i dont care. Ive been to see them once, was able to touch brian, was amazin. seeing them at wembly aswell, hope to see some of you there.

and thats it. thats me and my bit of feedback over. sorry it was so long.

from jenna xx

Helgz · Member

Hi Jenna, when i read your story i swear i was running into the record shop with you, all excited!!! And yep sometimes i have to stop myself talking about them and i also have to force myself to listen to other music, for the past few weeks they are all i have listened to in the car

I don't feel like a strong person but i know there must be something there, it's when i stop and look back i think 'How the hell did i get through that' (especially the marriage part) i guess it was just hope that kept me going, I was (and still am) always hoping things will get better for me. But i'm happy that i can lose myself in Placebo or come on here and chat with u guys. You are all fantastic people

Will · Member

so are you helgz, i look back and think the same thing, but my best friend gave me a hard kick into reality. and said if you eep doing this your really going to f*** your self over. she was there for me, so now i'm there for her.

didn't need prozac, i got threatened with it even now i do, but placebo, you guys and my mates, the band too. are a big help. so i love you guys!

Hannah_Molko · Moderator

You know, Honestly, all of us are very strong people at the end of the day. some have been through more than others. But at some point in our lives, we have probly all felt exactly the same way, You guys are very strong people and i admire that. The way you guys have pulled through. will, i understand the bullying thing. the way it makes you feel...Ive been bullied by dozens of different people. But i'm happy to say, i think its finally over now.
You know, i'f PA had shut down, and i didnt have any of your contacts, and couldnt ever speak to you guys again, i dont think i'd know what to do with myself.
When im feeling down, i cant ever talk to my friends about placebo anymore, because it gets on their nerves and they shout at me..so i can come on here and let it all out its great.

Just wanna say

Thanks guys

Will · Member

we thank you for making this

puremorning · Member

yes, thankyou
You amde it possible for us to meet again, to talk to eachother again about everything that's on uor mind, about placebo... this is what makes us so close, cose I do feel close to you all, cos you can understand me...
thanks

Will · Member

you took the words right our my mouth

Hannah_Molko · Moderator

have u guys noticed that placebo archive is no longer here, when u type in www.placeboarchive.com nothing comes up, its no longer there

ModernMonkey · Member

I noticed that too a while back. It was such a good site. But your board is the dawn of a new Placebo age.......at least we still have each other! Still wonder about xPlacebowhorex but didn't she have her own site?

dub psychosis · Member

...don't know....but i also remember Flizz...she stopped loggin on the PA...what ever happened to her??

puremorning · Member

I don't know Flizz.... I'm the "new one"
just noticed that PA is no longer here.... get sad again
plus I remeber Introvertedsoul and placegay....

Will · Member

i'll mail placegay with this adress. but i remember flizz, didn't she say something really rude on one of the pix? but i never saw her there, only on the comments

dub psychosis · Member

yeah, i never saw her either...i just saw her comments

does anyone has the email of introvertedsoul?? i miss her

puremorning · Member

I do... she's one of my best friends, but even if you write she won't answer, she has some big problems, her father is taking away her computer... and she doesn't know when she'll be able to write again
We were friends for over 3 months, really good ones... and she told me about this yesterday, and.. I felt like ****
If you want to try here it is
get_asphyxiated@hotmail.com
I hope she's better, and I miss her SO MUCH, I dunno what I'm gonna do without her

Hannah_Molko · Moderator

Flizz talks to me on MSN and Placebowhore has her own livejournal account

dub psychosis · Member

thanks PM ;) i used to talk with her on the PA ....hope she's better soon

puremorning · Member

I do more then hope, I pray for her to be better soon (even if I'm not religious at all, I mean at all)... I miss her so much, she's been there for me for 4 months, and now she's gone... it's an empty space than no one can take, it's hers

Will · Member

i kno wot you mean

puremorning · Member

i guess you do.. by the way meg you're space can't be taken either by anyone else

Will · Member

same with you, thanks

puremorning · Member

I knew that but thankyou!!!

Will · Member

just thought i'd tell you if you didn't

Hannah_Molko · Moderator

we must try and get some people to join

puremorning · Member

I'll try telling some of my friends from the rapid forum if you want me to