quote: Originally posted by: Will "me too, i'm terrible for bottlening things up, but it comes out in anger most of the time. lately, it doesn't any more"
You know Meg, I got bullied when I was younger, but trust me, believe in yourself that you are better than them (they're scum for inflicting this pain on you, so of course you are better) then you'll be fine.
Honestly it will stop, make sure you tell your parents or a teacher. Even if you don't feel comfortable in doing so, you need to find someone to talk to.
Bottling things up is bad, you said Placebo didn't help anymore, maybe if I told you that Brian has said before he is the same in the way he bottles things up? He's obviously worked out how to deal with this, it will take time but you will too.
if you write things down, it some times makes you feel better.
but i get like that some times, it feels like there's just this big black clowd out of no where following me. sorry to hear you feel like that tho, it's not very nice, i kno that much
the girl i think about is now , as ive been told, a drug addict, Drinks, is a heavy smoker, is not a virgin and is totally Meh'd at 13..good ridens to her
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I"m board and I feel sad.. and I don'[t know why.. I can't find the actual reason for feeling like this... I feel like crying, though I won't do that. I should be happy, but I'm not.. I just feel the whole world is going down with me, everyhting is spinning around.. I feel so stupid.. Damn. I shouldn't be writing this.. Damn... have to go now
quote: Originally posted by: puremorning "I"m board and I feel sad.. and I don'[t know why.. I can't find the actual reason for feeling like this... I feel like crying, though I won't do that. I should be happy, but I'm not.. I just feel the whole world is going down with me, everyhting is spinning around.. I feel so stupid.. Damn. I shouldn't be writing this.. Damn... have to go now "
no,you should write it Danina, like Meg said, its better to write things down, and to let us know, so we can help you. and i understand, It happend to me today, i started crying in english, for no reason, and i keep having these daydreams of meeting this bully again..i havent seen her for 2 years,and i can't seem to forget her...im writing a auto-bio about my past, being bullied, and i am planning to sell it, to help people who are being bullied.
It will be called, Treat a day as a life time. or something like that. But it is really helping me get rid of this unwanted emotion i have built up inside of me. that i can't express to anyone. And i know that i think that it wontgo away, it wont, its there in my head all the time, But maybe i'll forget it sometime. enough of me rambleing now, yes?..I hope all of you guys get rid of what ever is haunting you.
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i kno wot you mean, i can't seem to write "the effect" it's about the effects of being bullied and the memories keep coming back.
it comes out in temper with me. not a very pretty sight, but i'm going to force my self to write it. this happened on tuesday, a lad started well. bullying me. and i snapped, hit him and walked out the class room.
hannah, it you can't forget her, it must of been bad. i can still remember wot they all look like. every single one. i can't even sleep now. i keep having these weird dreams, thanks to those little f*****s.
well, lets hope they leed a crap life after school. i kno it's horrible, but i honestly don't give a rats back side
...yesterday i was feeling really bad...about nothing. I was just talking with my mum, and then out of nowhere i started feeling really sad and wanting to cry...so i went to my room and stayed there for an hour or so....it was really pathetic, i spent that time crying and thinking i was nobody, i just didn't have future -a loser-....i still believe i'm not good at anything...i suck , well, erm....i'll better stop there, and continue writing on loose sheets that will later become part of my 'poems'....
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quote: Originally posted by: dub psychosis "...yesterday i was feeling really bad...about nothing. I was just talking with my mum, and then out of nowhere i started feeling really sad and wanting to cry...so i went to my room and stayed there for an hour or so....it was really pathetic, i spent that time crying and thinking i was nobody, i just didn't have future -a loser-....i still believe i'm not good at anything...i suck , well, erm....i'll better stop there, and continue writing on loose sheets that will later become part of my 'poems'...."
NO! don't think that way.. You are good at anything you want to be good at... you just need to find something you like to do and focus on it.. I haven't found it yet, but I'm still searching and I can't give it up... you shouldn't either. It's ok to cry and let it all out.. that's what I did last night and I feel a bit better now. Crying helps... and writing everything down helps. Telling peopel how you feel helps. When I feel really ****ty I feel like keeping it in me, but I know that would just mean self-pitty and that really sucks...
mine.. as I said I didn't discover them.. but I"m good at maths, chemistry, physics and english.. I was good at drama, but I ahd to give it up, now I'm really sorry I gave up.. Wel I might start it all over again, I don't know.... I'm still sad, but that'sjust because I'm ill...
...i haven't found yet what i'm good at....all my friends have already know what career they want, but i just can't....my mum is always telling me i'm very creative, that i should study arts or something like that, and i agree, but when i start lookind at all the stuff i do when i'm "creative", i don't think it's good......so i haven't found a real purpose for my life
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quote: Originally posted by: dub psychosis "...i haven't found yet what i'm good at....all my friends have already know what career they want, but i just can't....my mum is always telling me i'm very creative, that i should study arts or something like that, and i agree, but when i start lookind at all the stuff i do when i'm "creative", i don't think it's good......so i haven't found a real purpose for my life "
same here
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i got told this, i don't kno it it makes scence "we all have a perpus in life, we just have to find our light. or the light will come to us, you might just have to find you path and follow it"
can't remember who said it, but i think it means follow your dreams. which i'm going to do