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jenna


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(francis, please do not comment as you know who this is)

I really like this guy. we'll call him fred. i went to a party and told fred this and now its all fcuked up. he was drunk, but he still said no. *sobs*. i know ive said before that im ok with it, and ok with being round him... but its eating me up inside. i've never wanted anyone so badly (not even brian). he seems ok with me, and talks to me. but my friends are telling me i have to let it go, but i cant. i cat just turn it off like that. i have another party, and i know hes going. oh, i could cry... i already have and i will again. ive never felt this way before - not even with my last boyfriend. i think about him all the time

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*sobs some-more*



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Oh, you poor thing. These feelings are so horrible. Sometimes you let someone know how you feel and they either tell you how it is so you can move on or you find they feel the same way but there is always this horrible inbetween stuff with some people, where you are never quite sure. I think subconsciously they know they have got you in a spot where they are in control. They don't mean it maliciously, they are just too mucked up to be any other way.


I hope you find something that distracts you from this. I found that to be the only way I could move forward. I still think about some people from 15 years ago and although I am happy now, there is a painful feeling that opportunities have been lost where relationships didn't have adequate closure and I am left wondering.


You will feel better in time. I know everybody says that but it is true. And things can change so suddenly and you might hear exactly what you want from him. I hope things pan out okay, either way. *hugs*



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thanx tess. *hugs back*

its so hard feeling like this. i was lucky i guess, in that after he turned me down i still got loadsa hugs off him that night and a kiss on the cheek. thing is hes everywhere. i try not to think of him, so i end up dreaming of him - for the last 3 nights. arghhhhhhh im going mad!

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Aww im so sorry Jen i wish i could help you but i'm really no good at love messes. but i hope everything turns out ok.

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same as hannah, I'm sorry for you, but I can't even help me sort my things out, I wish I could help you or give you some advice, but I don't want it to be worse

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I'm so sorry, I told a guy I liked him before, he didn't feel the same, but we were friends anyway, and we've stayed friends ever since.


I hope it can be the same for you Jen, you're a fab girl I'm sure you'll find someone else before you know it.



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*Francis enters, solemnly and knowing he can do no good..*



I can't help and I have no advice. I know though, that you will be fine in the end. I know people who have been in your shoes and I have been told how awful it feels, all of those people are now happier than they were. With or without the object of their need.

One used to be there. Silently waiting, caring, hoping, crying. I didn't know, I was generally happy. They are happy now. That is important. Remember that.


I can't understand your situation, but I know pain. I've just never let myself show it, when I left primary school I was the only child whom no-one has seen cry. I was proud.


I lost count how many times I cried tonight.


 


Worry not, hope lives.


Goodnight.


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*hugs franz*

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Thanks, I'm ok now.


I know you'll be ok too, it is in your nature.


I have faith in you, sorry that I can do no more..


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*scrolls up and winces*


Christus, that was a bit bloody serious. Especially for me, damn, must be less serious..


 



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Hmm, how goes it. Does the struggle availeth?



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i am learning to accept the horrid reality of the situation. it was not destined... tho i am not a believer of fate. i must force myself to move on, he will never feel the same. i guess its better to be friends tha have nothing at all. and so my love will remain unrequited.
*sniffs and leaves the room* :cries:

*peeps back in and says* i suppose i will just have to direct my attention elsewhere... mr molko, i return to you!

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lol, blimey. You get through them at a rate of knots eh? Best way I suppose, eventually you might find one worthwhile or something. Hope it's not getting you down.


Upward and onward I suppose..



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is everything ok now Jen?

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*sniffs* my wounded heart will heal... i suppose!

... oooooohhhhhhh bbbrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnnnn lol!

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*Is terribly jealous of Mr Molko*

-- Edited by Bloodline_Blue at 20:41, 2004-11-29

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"i am learning to accept the horrid reality of the situation. it was not destined... tho i am not a believer of fate. i must force myself to move on, he will never feel the same. i guess its better to be friends tha have nothing at all. and so my love will remain unrequited. *sniffs and leaves the room* :cries: *peeps back in and says* i suppose i will just have to direct my attention elsewhere... mr molko, i return to you! "

*laughs*


For someone who has moved on you were terribly eager to get his e-mail address off me. So much so that you were willing to offer your services for it, just be thankful I didn't take you up on the offer. lol, you'd never be the same again I tells yeh.. Never..



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LMAO you cheeky little sod!!!

well, we talked for a few minutes. he seems stressed - trying to sort the panto, so he said "sorry to be rude, but i must be going now. see you tomorrow"

and then he was gone

ah well. i think thats the first one to one ive ever had with him. lol!

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"I think thats the first one to one ive ever had with him. lol!"

*raises Brandy in salute*


...May it be the first of many!



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Put the Brandy down... its becoming more of an obsession than placebo is for me... ever thought of an AA meeting?!

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Psh, never really considered it. It's just practice for the cavalry, besides. Alcoholics can't stop drinking, I can. Sometimes I even do.



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quote:
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"i must force myself to move on, he will never feel the same.

i suppose i will just have to direct my attention elsewhere... mr molko, i return to you! "

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"do try to get one of me and any random pics of brendan swiggins will do hehehe! "


Don't seem quite wholly compatable, lol, does Mr Molko really have your attention back?



Cheeriest regards,


Monsieur Franz



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I saw this coming... and.. well... its sooo true. Im really not over him! *goes off to cry*

Im happy with liking him. Doesnt mean I love Brian any less.

btw Franz... I wasnt joking about the photos, lol. we dont have to display the swiggins one.. but i dont have a photo of him.

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"..but i dont have a photo of him."

Aha, mais oui..


..I shall be you undercover secter operative. Nah, seriously though..there'll probably be lots of people taking photos you could ask for one or a copy of one, besides..you could simply take one yourself..



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no i couldnt! that would be even weirder. just take sum fcuking photos biatch!



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