Hi, i thoght i'd start this thread after something Hannah said about a fear of death. Thought it would be good to have a place to get all of those things out.
I sometimes have a fear of death...at times i say that it doesn't bother me and other times it has put my life on hold or i have panic attacks (usually during the night).
fears.... Most of the time I'm afraid of being left behind... cos it happends so often... and I'm really afraid of it.. I'm afraid of the pain that comes afterwards.. after you realise your friends dumped you... they used you and threw you away... it's awful I used to be afraid of needles until I was 10.. but then because I'm allergic to many things I had to do injections a week... and I got used to them.... now I'm starting to be afraid of them again.. cos I didn't do any injections the whole year.. and I'm afraid I might have to them again.... of death.... sometimes... I'm really afraid of it... cos.... I mean I don't want to live forever.. but at least I find to find happiness and then die... Sometimes I'm afraid of my mother... it happends... I'm afraid to see people crying... cos I cry really easy.. and it happends somteimes for me to cry to.. and usually when one of my friends cries and I see her I start cryoing too and it all gets worse...
you shouldn't get used to it.. cos it shouldn't happend.... It's not fair, not right and it's a mean thing to do.. even though it has happened so many times.. I don't even remeber them all
Death, The dark , Spiders, Scissors (long story), being alone, being ignored, Public humiliation, Large dogs, heights, BB guns, lightining, wow, i thought i had more than that
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It always blows me away
I am very squeamish. I want to be a nurse but some things make me want to cringe so bad. I represented myself as an adult taking my sisters friend for a blood test after her parents didn't have time (how appaling) I was with her I just kind of stared like "oh needle and vein, needle and vein" I didn't throw up!!!
I really don't know what it is about needles, i used to be fine with it as a kid, but now i'd run a mile...and i feel stupid for even addmitting to this, but....i even went queezy and nearly fainted when i got my ears pierced Was fine when i got my nose done though
Hannah...i'll take 2 of your fears away from you coz i love the dark and i adore lightning!!!
Oh and another couple of things that drag me out of my comfort zone are (And i do not have a clue why, and don't laugh), i hate things being turned upside down, all food tins have to be the right way up, i've even been known to walk past stuff in the shops turning stuff up the right way without noticing i've done it.
All cutlery has to be the right way up in the drawer, i go nuts if it's all top to tail with each other (nuts, i know)
OMG!! How could i forget Clowns!!!! And those oldfashioned real looking dolls children's baby dolls that move like real babies and ventriloquist dummies, they do me in.!!
please don't mention clowns or dolls and stuff like that. i get chills even if people talk about them. i have quite a few, clowns, dolls, fish? marrage, death, war, insects, being alone, thunder, flying, inclosed spaces, large crowds, my maths teacher. really don't know why about the last one, but don't laugh at the fish thing or anything slimey as well, plus big dogs even tho i have one.
quote: Originally posted by: Hannah_Molko "Oh! theres another fear, thanks for reminding me...Manacins! You know, the plastic people in shops!...ooo...their creepy "
they really are... and how the clothes look on htem.. iihhh
I was fine with all my pirecing, or all the naval would have been worst, as the clamp pierces through your flesh for at least half a minute but I was just chit chatting away!! It's quite a complex fear I think!!
you ahve a really mean brother hannah.. I don't actually like too big rooms.. When I was about 5 I used to live with my grandma and when I was a "naughty" girl she used to put me in the largest room of the house, with big dolls, she used to make dark in there (turned the lights off) with a lot of books and a huge bed.. It was really creepy This is why I like small confy rooms